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15 October 2005 @ 04:17 pm
*sniff*  
Today would be the 93rd birthday of my grandma if she was still alive. She died 13 years ago from cancer and I miss her terrible. I found this poem a long time ago and it reminds me of her, my Guardian Angel. She's always here with me and my mom. She was our rock on which we could lean on when we needed to and she helped us whenever we needed her. You were the best grandma ever.
We miss you, Margie. I hope you and grandpa have fun up there. Someday we will be together again.

Do not stand at my grave and weep

I am not there, I do not sleep

I am a thousand winds that blow

I am the diamond glints on snow

I am the sunlight on ripened grain

I am the gentle autumn rain

When you awaken in the morning's hush

I am the soft uplifting rush

Of quiet birds in circled light

I am the soft stars that shine at night

Do not stand at my grave and cry

I am not there, I did not die

♥♥♥♥
 
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Torrijohnliz4ever on October 15th, 2005 02:24 pm (UTC)
*Hugs*

I know how difficult it is to lose someone to that damn illness. If you want to talk, I'm here.

*Huggles*
Mercymercscilla on October 15th, 2005 02:43 pm (UTC)
*breaks again into tears* My mom and I made a cake and brought it to her grave. It's so beautiful there, with the Forget-Me-Nots and the small candles.
Margie was such a strong woman and had for every problem a solution as if she had book in which they were written.

I remember one time (I was 3 or 4) when we were searching for easter eggs and she gave me signs where I should look. No one saw it and later I gave her some of my eggs *sniff* She was more than just a grandma. She and my mom are one of my best RL female friends and we had so much fun together.

In the last years of her illness she was still a strong woman and I've never seen her cry. The day she died my mom and I were with her and she told us to take care of eachother and never let someone get between us. Till this day my mom and I are the best family one could wish for.

*sniffles* Thank you for listening. I really needed it and my mom says thenks as well *hugs you tightly* Love you so much ♥
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rude & ginger: John-Lostdana_cz on October 15th, 2005 02:29 pm (UTC)
OMG, that poem is just heartbreaking! *sniffles* *hugs*
I lost my Grandmother when I was small and three years ago I lost my Grandfather. (both from father's side) I don't want to experience this ever again...but that's life...and death. :(
*hugs tightly*
Mercymercscilla on October 15th, 2005 02:32 pm (UTC)
*still red eyes from crying* Thank you so much. I really needed your hug *hugs back and clings* It's terrible to lose someone you love so much *sniff*
ohshocking: Atlantis - Shep/Weir - Hugohshocking on October 15th, 2005 03:41 pm (UTC)
Oh, hon. I know how you feel *many many big hugs*
Mercymercscilla on October 15th, 2005 03:46 pm (UTC)
*hugs you back tightly*
Vicky: At lastvickysg1 on October 15th, 2005 04:46 pm (UTC)
*many many hugs*
I wish I could be here with you and hug you for real.
Mercymercscilla on October 15th, 2005 04:53 pm (UTC)
*sniff* You're the best *grabs the hugs and snuggles them*

Love you ♥
Nessa: Sam - Tearing apartnessaja82 on October 15th, 2005 04:49 pm (UTC)
Mercyyyyyyyy! That's just so... so... *sob* sad. *huggles and snuggles and squeezes you tight* I nearly cried when I read that and I never cry!

My grandpa died a couple of years ago. He had... uh... staublunge. It's always bad to lose someone.

Darn, I'm always so bad at comforting people. *sends you all her love and hugs and wishes*
Mercymercscilla on October 15th, 2005 04:52 pm (UTC)
No, you're not bad at it. In fact your massive attack of huggles and snuggles and squeezes make feel better and really loved *hugs you back tight*

It's as if you lose a part of yourself and never can get it back *sniff* but you find new people as well who become then a part of you *point at you and glows with happyness*

♥ Love you and thank you so much for your comment *snuggles*
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purple_shoes on October 15th, 2005 05:59 pm (UTC)
That is one of my favourite poems.

::hugs::
Mercymercscilla on October 15th, 2005 06:05 pm (UTC)
*hugs back*
there's coffee in that nebulaun_crayon_rouge on October 15th, 2005 06:29 pm (UTC)
That is one of my favorite poems ever! It's so beautiful.
*hugs*
Mercymercscilla on October 15th, 2005 06:33 pm (UTC)
♥ *hugs back*
Lightz474: miss parker and jarodlightz474 on October 15th, 2005 06:54 pm (UTC)
*gives you a big hug* I've lost three grandmothers and one grandfather. It's sad to think about them but even harder to talk about them without breaking into tears. I'll always remember them and I hope that you have many great memories of your grandma.

There is one grandmother, my Oma, that if I ever lost her that I'm sure my heart would break. I hope that this is not the case for you but if this may be the case that you know where ever she is that she loves you and will wait for you on the other side. *hugs again*
Mercymercscilla on October 15th, 2005 07:09 pm (UTC)
*sobs* Thank you so much for your words *hugs back tightly* We will never forget them as long as we live.
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My Strength Will Make You Cry: Dangerous McKayclaudiasharon on October 15th, 2005 08:35 pm (UTC)
Your grandmother's name is the same as my greatgrandmother's name...freaky.

She died a few years ago and I miss her so.

And now my grandfather has cancer...so I'll probably lose him soon.

It's hard losing someone...you never will stop missing them.

*hugs*
Mercymercscilla on October 16th, 2005 09:01 am (UTC)
*hugs and clings* Freaky, indeed.

I'm so sorry, hon ♥ We remember them forever.
(no subject) - claudiasharon on October 16th, 2005 06:21 pm (UTC) (Expand)
ankareedaankareeda on October 16th, 2005 01:15 am (UTC)
Sweetie, I'm with you! *huggles* ♥

I lost my 2 grandpa's years ago and my grandma (father's side) 1 1/2 year ago. I miss them, especially my grandpa, who died first,...

Luv ya so much, Sweetie! *holds you* The poem is so wonderful...
Mercymercscilla on October 16th, 2005 08:46 am (UTC)
*clings very much* You're the best, my twin ♥

*holds you now* I'm really sorry.

Love you <3
Jenniferjr_moon on October 16th, 2005 09:19 am (UTC)
*hugs*
(Anonymous) on October 16th, 2005 11:03 am (UTC)
Thanks *hugs back*
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